I am such a liar. I want to do better, but for some reason I don't. I have eaten meat...on two occasions. I want to change my lifestyle. The crazy thing is that I have done it before. I want to be comfortable in my skin again. I am so very uncomfortable. My belly hangs over my pants, I can't fit my clothes any longer....people ask me if I'm expecting and I HATE that!!! I just feel as though my eating and my obese body are going on a downward spiral. I'm beginning to hate what I see in the mirror. It seems so easy to rectify...why am I having such a hard time? I'm 42. I'm fat. I need help.